I haven’t been a good friend to you for most of my life. I hated you, I blamed you, I abused you, and I wished you away. I was convinced it was you that caused my unhappiness, loneliness and anxiety. It’s easier to come to justifications rather than acknowledge the truth.
But you didn’t share my same attitude or beliefs. You kept giving your all to me – you fought for my love and acceptance. You fought for my health. You fought for my life. Everyday you functioned no matter what I unfairly asked of you. You allowed me to be an athlete, a good student and a nice person, and you kept fighting to keep me alive even when it didn’t seem possible. You never judged me or hurt me. You patiently waited until I opened my eyes and realized the truth you tried to show me all along.
I’m so sorry and I thank you for forgiving me. I cry tears knowing you love me, and the opportunity I now have to unconditionally love you back. You were never the problem – you were the answer. I tried to escape, when really, everything I was searching for was already within me. I will now give you the same compassion and kindness that I have always given to others. Thank you for welcoming me back with open arms. There’s no place like a loving home.