You’ll Hate Recovery

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YOU’LL HATE YOURSELF IN RECOVERY.
Deep down we all want to be recovered … until the process begins. Many will make tremendous progress and live a better quality of life. Far too many begin, only to relapse just when they’re about to turn a huge corner -because it’s too hard. And it is. It’s not too hard, but it’s harder than anything I can imagine and harder than just about anyone would want to work.

Your body starts changing- and though it’s not about your appearance- that has become your distraction from anxiety. Behaviors that have become as automatic as breathing -yet are in actuality suffocating you -have to be terminated. You feel raw, unsafe, vulnerable -your skin is crawling and your mind is raging in a chaotic fury you can’t calm.

EverythingΒ you’ve numbed away begins surfacing. Feelings, beliefs, traumas and the truthΒ you’ve buried is now staring you in the face without your Band-Aid. You don’t know how to cope -you did the best you could to survive, but in reality it’s destroying you slowly. “It’s too much! How can I heal such a mess? Who am I?”Β You’ll have an identity crisis. You’ll feel more alone than ever. 5 steps forward, 2 back -but those 2 hurt! You lose sight of the bigger picture. You’re forced to speak a foreign language. “This is hopeless!” you think. It was easier to not speak. You’ll feel the lure stronger than ever to give in to your old ways and accept a less than optimal life.

ThisΒ is the turning point. ThisΒ is where you choose to fight for you, for a life unknown, for freedom … or resign. You were given this job because you are qualified to earn it. Keep choosing recovery over and over and overΒ -no matter what!Β If you keep working through your past, feel your feelings, and develop the healthy, new behaviors necessary … you will soon be rewarded with authentic attention, friendships, safety, and peace. Best of all you’ll find yourself and begin to see a reflection you not only love -but one you realize you’ve recognized and known your whole life.

You’ll hate yourself in recovery. You’ll heal every part of yourself by seeing it through. ~BrittπŸ’œ

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4 thoughts on “You’ll Hate Recovery

  1. Brittany, I just finished reading your incredible story. It moved me so much – the pain, the hopelessness, the misery, and ultimately the healing and happiness you have reclaimed in your life. I guess you could say I am pretty “normal” with no life trauma or issues so to speak, but my older sister was plagued with many of the things that you went through. After many, many years of suffering and her family doing everything they could but unable to fix, just support her in every way we could, she is finally on a healthy recovery path also. Your book gave me so many insights into her thoughts and feelings, it has helped me tremendously. Thank you so much for being courageous enough to share your story! All the best on your continued journey.

    1. This is without a doubt one of the most beautiful and meaningful messages I have received. THANK YOU more than words could ever say for experiencing a part of my life with so much love and kindness. I’m so grateful you took the time out of your day to write me as this alone makes everything I’ve gone through more than worth it. I am SO happy to hear that your sister is now on a healthy path! We all heal on our own time and in our own ways -but we DO heal if we truly go within and want to and choose to. Not everything is in our control, but the puzzle pieces really can come together to form the most breathtaking picture. I hope you are doing well too! Please write me anytime and stay in touch if you’d like. What you had to share about my book is such a gift to me. I’m sending all my love <3

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