brittanyburgunder

Author: brittanyburgunder

Brittany Burgunder grew up in San Luis Obispo a nationally ranked tennis player and horseback rider. After battling with a severe eating disorder for over 10 years, she is speaking out about her story with her gripping memoir, Safety in Numbers: From 56 to 221 Pounds, My Battle with Eating Disorders -A Memoir. Her story is taken directly from personal journal entries, which chronicle her struggles and ultimate triumph. Brittany is a psychology student at Cal Poly and a contributing writer for Elite Daily. Brittany has published many press releases and articles and blogs on a regular basis. Brittany is a passionate writer and is the grandniece of Pulitzer Prize winning author, William Styron. She continues to enjoy and compete in tennis and in dressage. Brittany looks to be an inspiration and role model to others and desires to bring hope to those who have none by sharing her story.

On My Mind

How You Use Your Pain

⋅ ⚡️Pain is powerful —for better or worse. It has the ability to break those who seem invincible, and it has the capability to revive those who seem like a lost cause. The most potent type of pain is often the kind that cannot be seen. It's insidious, and dresses…

Posted on May 10, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

On My Mind

Hiding The Need For Help

⋅ 🎭Since when do people who need help have a look? Because it's often those who intentionally strive to appear successful and unbreakable that are crumbling the most. And they desperately want you to notice that they need help equally as much as they need you to think they are fine.…

Posted on May 3, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

Recovery Thoughts

Not Guilty

😬Guilt and eating disorders go hand in hand. They feed off one another and they need one another to thrive. The definition of guilt is: “the fact of having committed a specified or implied offense or crime.” What crime did you commit exactly? But this is exactly how it feels…

Posted on April 26, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

Recovery Thoughts

A Choice You Won’t Regret

⋅ 🌿I have never once uttered the words, "I regret recovery." But countless times I have cried, "I regret my eating disorder." To be blunt, almost every single thing in my life that I wish I could redo or undo is directly or indirectly a result of my eating disorder. My life…

Posted on April 19, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

Recovery Thoughts

Recovery Is Hard

⋅ 😈The difficulty with eating disorder recovery is that it will feel awful both to get well, and to stay sick. The question comes down to which is just a little bit less horrible. To complicate things further, your judgment will be compromised by your eating disorder manipulating your vision.…

Posted on April 12, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

Recovery Thoughts

Beyond Food and Weight

⋅ 🧁"I'm so fat! Oh my gosh did someone just bring fresh donuts? 100, 200, 300 —how many calories did I burn at the gym? I need to eat less! Wait, what just happened? How could you have binged —again? Throw up, take laxatives, run 5 miles —now! Just 10…

Posted on April 5, 2021April 5, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

Recovery Thoughts

Recovery Feels Wrong

⋅ ‼️RECOVERY FEELS WRONG! I felt like I was committing a crime every time I took an action towards recovery. I imagined myself as a prisoner trying to escape. Adrenaline surged through my veins in my state of hypervigilance. I was sure I'd be caught at any moment —caught and…

Posted on March 22, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

On My Mind

Walk Away

⋅ 🏆Bravery and courage are underrated and misrepresented in my opinion. My first instinct when I think of these two words is to imagine a fearless, tough, and successful individual wearing a cape. The hero in the movies and in the media is the brave one, the celebrated one, and…

Posted on March 15, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

Recovery Thoughts

You Are Not Your Disorder

⋅ 👋"Hi! My name is Anorexia, nice to meet you." "You can call me Binge Eating Disorder, what's your name?" "I go by Bulimia or Mia for short, either name is fine." How ridiculous does that sound? And yet, for many years of my life, I could not separate my…

Posted on March 8, 2021March 8, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

Recovery Thoughts

Before You Comment …

⋅ ✔️I wish this could be a class subject in schools worldwide. Even if a comment about someone else has good intentions, it most often does more harm than good. When I was struggling, especially with anorexia, I was a master at twisting other's words so that they aligned with…