brittanyburgunder

Author: brittanyburgunder

Brittany Burgunder grew up in San Luis Obispo a nationally ranked tennis player and horseback rider. After battling with a severe eating disorder for over 10 years, she is speaking out about her story with her gripping memoir, Safety in Numbers: From 56 to 221 Pounds, My Battle with Eating Disorders -A Memoir. Her story is taken directly from personal journal entries, which chronicle her struggles and ultimate triumph. Brittany is a psychology student at Cal Poly and a contributing writer for Elite Daily. Brittany has published many press releases and articles and blogs on a regular basis. Brittany is a passionate writer and is the grandniece of Pulitzer Prize winning author, William Styron. She continues to enjoy and compete in tennis and in dressage. Brittany looks to be an inspiration and role model to others and desires to bring hope to those who have none by sharing her story.

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Weight-ever!

⋅ 📊My value as an individual was entirely dependent upon a number on the scale. And my moods varied in perfect step with the fluctuations of my weight. I swore everyone could see right through me. If I lost a pound, I walked around with my head held a little…

Posted on July 26, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

On My Mind

Trigger Warning

⋅ 💥I lived in a bubble for many years of my life. E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G triggered me. And it was imperative that I avoid feeling at all costs. I had always been a sensitive and inquisitive individual, but also extremely insecure about my place in the world. An eating disorder sheltered my fractured…

Posted on July 19, 2021July 19, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Recover Your Way

⋅ 🔸I wanted to recover perfectly. In fact, I demanded myself to be the definition of it —and this is, in part, why my recovery was so sporadic. The thought of recovery and its ambiguity was very intimidating. You have to forge your own trail, and you have to create…

Posted on July 12, 2021July 12, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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The Body You Have Now

⋅ 🔎I was looking through my closet when I noticed some old photo albums sitting on the top shelf. I wasn't intending to look through any of them, but before I knew it, I was sitting next to a stack of albums. Memories flooded out as I opened them. ⋅…

Posted on July 5, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Body Image Blues

⋅ ⚠️I once believed losing weight and shrinking myself would solve most of my problems. If there were less of me, then there would be less to hate. The issue was that I couldn't selectively reduce my size without also reducing my life. ⋅ I didn't always hate my body. The…

Posted on June 28, 2021July 8, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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When Fear And Want Are The Same

⋅ 🌗Eating disorders are the epitome of contradictions. You say one thing, but do the opposite. You hate something, yet do it anyway. Often, I felt as if my emotions, thoughts, and actions were screwed on backwards. It was as if I was hard-wired to operate by a system that…

Posted on June 21, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Beauty Of Recovery

⋅ 🌿Recovery takes on various shapes, sizes, emotions and feelings. Everyone has a different picture of how it might appear. But what I know to be true is that recovery ... ⋅ Looks more beautiful than your perfectly posed pictures With your six pack abs and trendy clothes. Is more…

Posted on June 14, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Lessons From Recovery

⋅ 👇These are the top ten things I’ve learned recovering from an eating disorder: ⋅ 1.) THE BEGINNING IS THE HARDEST —This is when you will want to turn back to your eating disorder the most, and also when it's imperative to refrain. Counterintuitive to what you believe, you are…

Posted on June 1, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Blind Trust

⋅ 🌿This brilliantly illustrates the conflict and courage involved in recovery. Trust is often a difficult issue for those who struggle with eating disorders. The process of rebuilding trust in someone or something is tough for most individuals regardless. But for those with an eating disorder it can feel impossible.…

Posted on May 23, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Liar Liar

⋅ 🚫There was never an "aha moment" when I first recognized I had an eating disorder. Part of the reason I struggled so severely and for so long was because my eating disorder swore it wasn't to blame. In fact, it guaranteed that an eating disorder didn't even apply to me…