Brittany Burgunder

A CHOICE YOU WON’T REGRET

?I have never once uttered the words, “I regret recovery.” But countless times I have cried, “I regret my eating disorder.” To be blunt, almost every single thing in my life that I wish I could redo or undo is directly or indirectly a result of my eating disorder. My life became a series and a cycle consisting of: REGRET — PROMISES TO GET BETTER — RELAPSE — REPEAT.

I think it’s really important to mention that regret is not interchangeable with the word “fault,” or “blame.” It was never my fault for developing, or struggling with an eating disorder. I was also not to blame for the chaos it created within me. This does not mean I wasn’t responsible for my behaviors. However, eating disorders are the second deadliest mental illness, and my actions were not always in my control. Still, knowing what I do now, I could have avoided significant remorse by choosing to recover a little bit harder, a little bit longer, and a little bit sooner.

Because you will regret …

• Avoiding social situations because of food

• Wasting time counting calories

• Prioritizing your eating disorder over relationships

• Not eating cake on your birthday

• Giving more time to your disorder than education

• Spending time in treatment instead of with friends

• Canceling plans to schedule a binge instead

• Hating yourself for breaking promises to change

• Watching those who love you worry with despair

But you will never regret —choosing to recover. ~Britt?

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