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The Weight Of An Eating Disorder

⋅ 🌿I've struggled with most forms of an eating disorder over the span of a decade, and my weight has reflected this. Despite significant fluctuations in my size, not much else changed. My weight and appearance were only symptoms of the same internal problems. When it comes to eating disorders,…

Posted on October 18, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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How Recovery Happens

⋅ ✅You didn't develop an eating disorder overnight, and you surely won't recover from one instantaneously either. This sounds cliché, but if I'm honest with you, I struggled to take this to heart. I was angry that my eating disorder wouldn't just "go away." I didn't want to put the work…

Posted on October 11, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Defining Recovery

⋅ 🦋There are many different levels to recovery. Often, I thought I was recovered only to realize I had more layers to work through. Each time I made progress, I quietly rejoiced. I thought I had succeeded. I was done, healed and finished with this “recovery stuff.” But I wasn't.…

Posted on October 4, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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10 Phases of Eating Disorder Recovery

?10 PHASES OF RECOVERY ⋅ 1.) I don’t think I have a problem. ⋅ 2.) I might have a problem, but it’s not that bad. ⋅ 3.) I have a problem, but I don’t care. ⋅ 4.) I want to change, but I don’t know how and I’m scared. ⋅…

Posted on September 20, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Ideal Weight

Your ideal weight is a collection of experiences, feelings, ambitions, and mental processes. It's a space that is fluid, ever-changing, and abstract. There is no numerical relation to what is best. Instead, you must live your life free from numerical restraints. An ideal weight is not one you can predict,…

Posted on September 12, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Skinny Lies

⋅ ?Losing weight was my life's purpose. I lived and breathed for the moments when I could see the numbers fall on the scale. It didn’t matter how I felt in the moment because I was promised increasing happiness in exchange for my decreasing size. I learned to celebrate the…

Posted on September 6, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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The Peril of Perfectionism

⋅ ✨I used to have this delusional belief that in order to matter in life, I had to be the best. This had nothing to do with narcissism —it was the opposite actually. Any source of self-esteem I possessed had run dry. I had no reserves left when I was…

Posted on August 30, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Consequences

⋅ ?Recovery is anxiety-provoking, nerve-racking, panic-inducing, and terrifying ... temporarily. While an eating disorder is a deceptive master at disguising the terrors you'll be left with. And when all is said and done, you should be much more afraid of ... ⋅ ▪️Wasting time counting calories ▪️Missing out on social…

Posted on August 23, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Don’t Cheat Yourself

⋅ ❌The only logical way a "cheat meal" could make sense is if you were in a serious relationship with a diet. It sounds silly, but that is exactly what it is, whether you're consciously aware of it or not. This term especially runs rampant in the diet and fitness…

Posted on August 16, 2021 by brittanyburgunder by brittanyburgunder

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Beating The Binge

⋅ ?My strife with bulimia and binge eating disorder proved to be the most maddening. Prior to my first binge, I had battled with anorexia for 7 years. Restricting wasn't an issue at that time, but eating more seemed impossible. My world flipped over the night my idea of “eating…