NEDA WEEK 2015: “I HAD NO IDEA…”

In honor of National Eating Disorder Awareness Week: “I had no idea…”

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• It would become my way to cope
• It would isolate and change me
• It would number me from reality
• It would become my only friend
• It would value being perfect over life
• It would destroy my tennis dreams
• It would take away my special horse
• It would rip apart my family
• It would rob me of growing up
• It would make me hate myself more
• It would possess me
• It would make me an exercise addict
• It would force me to leave college
• It would place me on my deathbed
• It would make me go bald
• It would force me to relearn to walk
• It would kill many people I knew
• It would cause me to become obese
• It would cause me to abuse laxatives
• It would make me want to die
• It would put me in and out of treatment
• It would turn me into a hopeless case

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But I also had no idea…

• I would develop a newfound strength
• I would start to find myself
• I would be able to overcome it
• I would find a new purpose
• I would go back to college
• I would ride and play tennis again
• I would have great friends
• I would repair my family relationships
• I would learn to accept myself
• I would begin to heal old wounds
• I would be healthy and happy
• I would turn hopeless into hope

Because I had no idea what an eating disorder was and would do to my life. But I do have an idea as to how I’m going to turn something so painful, so destructive and chaotic… And turn it into something so powerful, beautiful and inspirational. ~Britt